Emotional breakdown . :')

i've been keeping in these emotions for a longgggggg time, and finally, i cried.

its like triggering my own tsunami.

standing in the middle of a playground, with amelia in front of me, listening to me weeping for about an hour. :')

those tears were unstoppable..

but it was really a good one, when was the last time since i cried? ermmmm, yeah, so it was a longggggg time ago.

this was during our volleyball practice session, 4-7pm.

after dad drop me at mca vball court, emo sylvia soo walk towards teammates.

we made a circle to pratice digging and passing ball at the bball court cause the vball court is occupied by foreigners. :0 scary. not that im racist or what but you know well what foreigners had done to our country. :L

back to story, i can't concentrate anymore, excused myself to aside, then when i saw amelia coming, i sort of said something like 'I feel like crying' , and then i started crying. :')

weeping and whining , covering my face with her towel , and i'm sure my teammates will do lots of stuff behind my back! like

*whispers*whats goin' on?! / is she okay? / what happened?*whispers*

mihun even pretend to pass by and sang something like "别想太多~"

awwwwww, thanks for caring , :')

ahhhhh, those burdens, gone. maybe i was too stressed out for the past few months. its awesome that i managed to cry out the day before the competition cause i don't think i will perform well if i bring my emotions to the court. so thanks buddies, thanks ;3

and for the first time, after crying in front of so many humans (evening time, peak hours at the playground) and friends, i don't feel ashamed as if i'm weak, though i still feel awkward when they pretended like nothing happened xD LMAO

mmm, i know i have friends that care for me lots. :* this is a kiss.

recalling back, it was quite a funny and stupid moment. :'D